I know I should back off.
But when I decide to back off, I still doubt, and in the end never really did it.
Today, I decide to back off yet again, but this time, no doubts.
These thoughts has been in my head since I come to know him better.
I sort of fell for him. But know I shouldn't. Why does it feel so sinful to fall for someone I shouldn't?
Time and again I tell myself to stop all these but time and again I keep falling back into the trap.
The trap? MY OWN TRAP.
I don't want to hurt anyone. Including him, including myself.
In this haze of emotions with uncertainty I am not able to decipher my own direction.

Back off, both away from you and him.
Let nature takes it's course... but distancing, making things clear.
For you, for myself.

At least I know my Lord my God is here for me. His love surpasses earthly ones, and because of His love and mercy, I can soar. My soul finding refuge in His wings. Lord help me.